Nutshell

Maybe its not that no-ones smart enough to crack it,

But rather I don't want to share the fruit inside.

Its mine. Fuck off.

Importance

Not too long ago, I thought time spent was worth it as long as I get paid.

Afterall, money is needed to buy the material things in this world.

I like to think that I'm not too attached to those things, but once in a while something grabs my attention and won't let go.

Now that need is satisfied... somewhat. It needed a lot of money, and will still need a whole lot more.

Was the time spent earning that money worth it? I'll tell you on Monday.

However, I have come to realise that more often than not, the best moments I want to treasure, the moments I want to have... they can't be bought with money.

They are had with the people you can't afford to lose. The people who won't give a rat's ass about whether you rock up in rags or riches. 

They do need time though. Time I should be more than willing to invest.

Time, you little bastard, once I find you, I'm keeping you in a nitrogen filled case so that you never age.

Then I'm gonna drive to my heart's content, and have enough memories to saturate this short life of mine.

Gemstone

These are the rare stones found in the Earth.

I stumble upon them and initially have no idea of their worth.

Some glow in the dark and light the way when its dark - with all my heart I wish I can return the favour in some way.

Some provide me with spiritual energy, just enough to keep me going when I'm down - without these ones, I don't even want to think about where I might be right now.

Some somehow change colour with my mood.... despite what I say/do they see through it and understand what the inside of my heart looks like - these especially I've heard are fucking rare, I guess I'm damn lucky.

To all of them I say thank you. I treasure them all and hope that they know it.

Their worth? To me, every single one is beyond priceless.

My new baozi

I have a new baby

It shall be known as Char Siu Bao

Waiting

Just pull the fucking pin and throw it already.

I'm right here above the trenches.

Soulmate

Golden smiles with the laugh of a guardian angel. So close, yet so far.
Omnipresent is your face. Nowhere can I turn without your image right in front of my eyes.
Take me to your dreams, I want to understand the impossible.
Mindful of every hour passed with you. Unnoticed and indiscriminate.
Every fight a warzone for an unworthy cause.
Hold me tight, before I leave tonight.
? Why aren't we able to?

Order

Let's get our priorities in order....


Wants:
A car that makes me happy
An active social life
To move out
Eileen to tell me what her blog post is abt
More time


Needs:
A car that gets me from a to b
My life back
A place that I can call my own
Closure >=[
MORE TIME